January 2008

2008 – well to Chinese this is good year. What about me??? Yeah I really hope this gonna be a new start for me – after what happened last year.

My office relocated to a new floor – it’s a huge office!!! On 18th Jan – had a small celebration for new year, new office and new people. Had it at Basil Leaf – the ambience was ok – I prefer Bora instead of Basil Leaf. But food wise – better than Bora!!! At 1st I didnt want to join the event, but after lots of people asked me to go. So what to do – just pergi lah. Our vp gave our team a credit – relocation thingy – huhuhu actually that’s what I waited for!!! Hahaha!!!

Went to watch Noryn @ Alexis – actually Im not a big fan of her. By the time me, naz, fs & en were, it was really packed – tried to find a seat but luck just wasnt on our side that nite. We have stood at the same spot from the beginning up to the end of the show. Noryn did came by, said hi and salam-salam all of us. Never thought that shes that friendly. Oh yah – saw AH that nite, I was afraid if W was there – but luckily he was at home – hehehe nasib baikkk. We talked on the phone that nite – sanggup to just to make sure he wasnt there that nite hahahaha!!!

We went for the next for – which is Shanon Shah – was he good?? He supposed to be good!!! Was a bit frustrated that nite. He sang most of his self written song – but most of it was new song – so how on earth people would enjoy!! By the way naz fallen asleep during the show – hahaha!!! That’s described how boring it was that nite hahaha!!!

I dont know how many of you realize that I only go out for live shows!!! Huh how bored my life is – isnt it!?

2007 – ii

I did my corn removal during raya haji – just a minor operation. So after about 45 minutes – everything was ok. The doctor wanted to gave me 3 days off – but I only insisted for 1 day off. Ya ya say whatever you like – apple polishing ke gosok sampai kilat ke – suka hati. Christmas is just around the corner and I have a lot of things to settle before everyone goes off for their holidays. Some offices are closed until next year – can u imagine the pressure??? Alhamdulillah, I managed to do so..

It was the 1st time ever in my neighborhood celebrated Christmas. It was fun party started with makan-makan time. Followed by a caroling session, we sang lots of song – sway, belaian jiwa, begawan solo, mulanya disini and lots more – ok its kinda weird singing malay songs for Christmas!!! Well reason – simple! They invited all the Malay family in the area – its quite surprising some of them never attend a Christmas open house. Well maybe something got to do with religion or what so ever. After caroling, they gave each family a present – Christmas without presents?? Ahakz.. yeah to some people, Christmas is all about giving – thats why if you notice, they don’t mind getting expensive stuff for their love ones. Ok back to the party, it ended with a dancing session. It was fun watching them dancing. They did from chacha to dangdut – hehehe – then I went back home. Last but not least – MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

 

 

2007 – i

It’s been quite awhile since my last posting.. This round tak nak post poems lah.. I’m gonna tell about me.. Bukan apa kira nak bagi tau.. HEY I’M STILL ALIVE!! Don’t really know where I should start.. Bak kata Andy Williams ‘WHERE DO I BEGIN?’ I try la huh!!

 

Since working in WS my life hasn’t change that much.. But one thing for sure.. It’s all about me getting busy and busier each day.. Left my house early in the morning around 7.00-7.20am in the morning and left the office late at nite.. NAZ always telling me that I’m a ‘pekerja contoh’ hmm.. Am I??!! Kalau betul.. Alhamdulillah.. One thing I’m a bit worried.. I think I’m becoming the next BC!! My lady boss!!I don’t mind people calling me BC Jr!! Hahahaha.. Working with her is not easy.. Her expectations goshhh!!! It’s DAMN HIGH!! Really high!!

BC had been telling and asking me and E (my collogue) at same thing and the same question.. Do we know what I really want?? Is this really my ‘cup of tea’?? How do I see myself in 10 years time?? Is it the same old me?? Doing the same thing?? Seating at the same place.?? Blablablablablabla.. Hey believe it!! She started to ask me all these after 2 weeks working with her!! Hahaha.. 2 weeks man.. 2 WEEKSSSS!! Got to believe it guys.. And until now.. She keep on repeating the same thing: myself in 10 years time?? Is it the same old me?? Doing the same thing?? Seating at the same place.?? Blablablablablabla.. Hey believe it!! She started to ask me all these after 2 weeks working with her!! Hahaha.. 2 weeks man.. 2 WEEKSSSS!! Got to believe it guys.. And until now.. She keep on repeating the same thing: D

One of the thing she said.. ermmm my 2nd brother told me the same thing too.. Don’t be just a worker/employee but try to be an asset!! Make other people think and say certain things can’t be done when you are not around.. Let them feel that we are important!! Kinda like this statement.. So let me be MINAH PERASAN for awhile.. Well I think I becoming an asset to BC and the team!! Hahaha.. Ini kenyataan bukan rekaan

I’ve been doing lots of thing for BC including baby sit her son!! Please deh (hehehe. Mcm weird la pulak).. Bukan bodek or like Ez used to tell me ‘gosok sampai kilat’.. That’s not me.. So not me.. I’m lucky I guess very lucky.. BC appreciates me.. it not easy to find a boss like her.. She gave me Iseten vouchers for my Birthday.. It was a lot!! I can get a large bottle of Blvgary perfume with the vouchers.. Buttttttttt I gave it back to her.. Ya ya.. u can call me stupid or whatsoever u want to name me.. I thought she will just forget about it.. But about 2 weeks ago.. She sms-ed me.. Saying thank you and she did mention about the vouchers!! She said she really wants to give me something for my birthday.. :’( Ok get emotional that time.. my tears dropped!! Kira mcm terharu giler lahhh.. Huhuhu.. It’s not easy to find someone like her.. Hahaha.. She’s mean really mean but nice at the same time.. Yeah.. She bad but not that bad lah.. So my doa to everyone reading this.. Mintak-mintak korang dapat bos yang mean & baik like BC.. Baik doesn’t mean your boss kene bagi barang or what.. But as long as they appreciates u and how they express their gratitude.. To me that’s important!!

Dalam pada bz everyday.. I am very lucky to have a very understanding mother.. Yeah my mum have changed a lot.. After the last fight we had months back.. She seems like to be more understanding.. Alhamdulillah JFinally J Besides that.. I’m very lucky to have a friend like NAZ.. Yeah makcik.. Believe it.. YOU!! No one can replace u.. Like sengal (sorry guys lately kami ni memang suka bagi nama lah hapa2 kat org) kata.. We are like sisters.. Lain mak lain bapak lain kaler Hey.. Jangan ambik hati.. Dia tu jealous sebab kita nih mixed.. Maka dengan itu sepatutnya kita kene bangga.. Yeah actually I’m proud bila bagitau org yang gue nih emang nya berdarah campuran.. Tak kiralah nak selit jugak kat sini.. Belah my father.. Ada Indonesian.. Ada Malaysian (Malaya).. Belah my mum.. Chinese got Nyonya oso got Siamese oso got.. Makcik I’m proud to have u as my friend too.. Yang penting u know when I activate my silent mode

 

Oh ya.. NAZ bought me a basket of chocs.. Got flower a bit & a monkey.. Tu tak pe lagi.. It came with a balloon!!!! a HUGE balloon.. Penuh la satu kete.. FYI I only have a kelisa.. So u can imagine how big is the balloon.. It occupied almost the whole space of the back seat!! Can u imagine that.. Eh makcik next year buat garland depan my office ok??!! Last year I celebrated my birthday in Phuket.. This year kat Bora Ombak.. Ok lah tu.. Perasan konon celebrate kat BALI.. Hahaha.. Bleh gitu!!?? Hahaha.. Eh makcik errkk should change it to nenek.. eh thanx for the dinner ek.. U better watch out!! I will get a HUGE balloon for you oso.. Nanti ko carry la naik tren.. Hahaha..

 

As everyone knew.. We just had Live & Loud in KL.. So Tompi was one of them yang datang.. But sorry guys.. Bukan nak citer pasal Live & Loud Sebenarnya nak citer went to watch a show in Alexis with E.. Watched Bibus!! Yeah I know most of you tak kenal sapa Bibus.. He’s a singer from Indonesia.. Nak dijadikan cerita.. Found his FS.. Added him in my FS list.. Later I msg-ed him.. And he replied!! So when I met him.. After introducing myself.. To my surprise he remembered about me.. I’m more than happy to hear that.. His show was great.. A great pianist/keyboardist.. Singing from George Benson to Ray Charles few of his own numbers.. I’m impressed actually.. Yelah nowadays tak ramai yang nak dengar lagu R&B, blues, oldies mcm tu.. Overall it was great.. Later, Tompi came.. He sang SALAHKAH and SOMETHING”S WRONG.. He was great too.. After the show.. Took photo with Bibus & Tompi.. Chatted with them.. How I wish our local artist pun mcm depa..

 

Ok this part yang best On the very next day I took my mum to Alexis.. yeah.. Better believe it.. Took her there for dinner.. Actually went there sebab dah janji I will drop by for a while So after dinner, Went in inside to meet-up with them.. After dah dapat CD gue saje jelah ask Bibus weather he wants to meet up with my mum.. He said ‘yeah sure’.. Hahaha terkejut my mum.. I was thinking.. I don’t know how many of u knew that actually I am a prez of a local artist fan club.. It’s almost a year.. Sekali pun my mum tak pernah jumpa that so called Artis.. Tapi my mum dah jumpa Bibus.. the best part.. My mum dah jumpa parents Artis tu.. hmm mcmn tu??!! Hopefully our local artis pun pandai pandai la jaga hati peminat yang dah sedia ada tu ye..

 

Hmmm what else ye.. Talking about MEN!! Hmmm Lately selalu teringat kat my x.. Dunno why.. Kenapa ek?? Miss him kah?? Nehhh bukan.. Cuma terfikir.. I wasted my 8 years just like that.. 8 years man.. 8 years.. And I end up just me alone.. I came to know few guys.. Name it as Sengal.. Idiot.. Weird.. Lagi sekor nih tak tau nak bagi nama apa.. Nak letak nama betul tak leh.. Coz dia rajin view this page.. Ok name him as T.. So I have Sengal.. Idiot.. Weird and T..

Between these 4, yang tau apa he wants.. Hala tuju hidup.. I will say T.. He gone thru alot.. I think he deserved to be where he is right now.. Pendek kata sapa dapat T memang untung.. Dah kawen esok bawak baju je beb.. Tak yah pening2.. Eh T.. When are u going to call me ah??

 

Sengal.. Is always sengal.. That’s you been calling him sengal.. He’s nice but not that nice.. I tot he knew me well enough.. But actually he’s not!! It’s funny.. Sengal can remember things yang gue sendiri tak pernah buat.. I know myself.. I know what I did.. Tapi yang best dia bleh ingat benda yang gue sendiri tak buat.. Mcmn tu?? Lawak la mamat nih.. Apa apa jelah.. Dah dia nak jadi sengal.. Nak buat mcmn kan!? But sengal.. I don’t know whether you reading this.. U need to step up.. U need to choose the correct path.. I would like to see u be someone one day.. Life is short.. Make full of it.. Enjoy each second of it.. One thing u need change.. And I hope you will one day.. J

 

Idiot.. hmm nice guy.. It’s almost a year dah kenal dia nih.. We used to talk, sms & chat everyday.. But lately tak de dah.. Maybe he is just fulfilling my wish.. I do admit I’ve fallen into him.. But helo.. dia dah ada GF!!! Ok Please dehhh.. Once bitten twice ashy!! I don’t understand him.. Dah ada GF but still flirting around.. but hey.. I’ve listened him talking to his GF.. Hehehe.. It was so not him.. Erkk I mean not him when he’s talking to me lah OK Not going to tell so much about him.. NAZ is doing that for me in her blog.. Hahaha

 

Now.. Weird.. Ok named him Weird because he is WEIRD.. And dia ada hati nak tanya ‘am I weird?’ Yes u are weird!! He is the only guy yang sms/call me late at nite wishing me good nite.. asking me ‘dah tido?’ at 2 or 3 in the morning.. Wishing me good morning early morning.. Called me just to strum his guitar and sing to me.. He has a good voice.. Serious!! No joke!! He is the only guy who called me baby.. And he is the only guy who called me SARJAN!!!! Noty noty weird!!! My 1st impression about him was not that good.. Hate him actually.. Sebab dia ni perasaan bagus.. I told him I don’t like.. n he listened to me.. Alhamdulillah dia dah kureng sikit.. Ada jugak but kurang.. He’s really into music.. Especially Indonesian.. I was excited when I came to know he into Indonesian.. His quote ‘it takes 2 to tango, I to chacha’.. He likes tango.. Actually I turned him down twice.. He called me, and I said I need a rest.. Don’t feel like talking to him at the moment.. and I am not feeling well.. I’M BAD!!! REALLY BAD!!! Sorry weird.. Didn’t mean to do that to u.. Actually I’ve been waiting for his call for days.. He doesn’t seem like calling me.. Miss talking to him actually.. Really really hope he will call me soon.. L

 

** hey I’m still alive ok

sorry

hi all..

i hope everyone is doing great.. for those visiting.. thank you very much.. really appreciate it.. i will upload the poems i wrote.. it’s in my notebook.. maleh nak copy paste.. actually tak tau nak tulih apa.. saja gatal nak login.. huhuhu.. catch you guys later yeah.. take care.. traaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

my questions

What is this? ~ What do I feel? ~ What do I do? ~ Is this really really real? ~ We we good friends, it happen so fast ~ We grew really close and a trust that would last ~ We talked, we joked, we schemed ~ We poured out our hearts, secrets and dreams ~ When did this happen ? ~ When did this start? ~ You’re now in my mind, you’re now in my heart ~ I see your face, I see you smile ~ I hear your voice, please stay awhile ~ I long for your touch ~ I wish you would hold me and say you love me so much ~ I can’t keep it inside ~ What do I do? ~ Do you love me? As much as I love you? ~ Do say that I need you? ~ Do I say what I feel? ~ Do I ask you to love me? ~ Say my heart’s your’s to steal? ~ But what if you run? ~ What if you leave? ~ What if you laugh or just don’t believe? ~ I guess for now.. I’ll keep it inside ~ I won’t say a word till you want to be mine!!!

selalu denganmu – tompi

Adakah waktu yang tak berbatas ~ Untukku merasa bahagia ~ Saat-saat aku jatuh cinta ~ Saat ku terbang jauh ke sana ~ Selalu denganmu ~ kasihku selamanya ~ Selalu denganmu ~ Cintaku bersama ~ Kaulah matahari dalam hidupku ~ Dan kaulah cahaya bulan dimalamku ~ Hadirmu selalu akan ku tunggu ~ Cintamu selalu akan ku rindu ~ dan tiada lagi batas ruang waktu ~ Tahukah kau diri ku tak sanggup hidup ~ Bilaku jauh darimu ~ Ku ingin di pelukan mu ~ Selalu ~ Oh Tuhan tetapkan rasa cintaku ini ~ Hanya untukmu ~ Selalu setia selama-lamanya

forgiven

I want to forgive him, but it hurts so much ~ I want to feel better, forgetting his touch ~ Forgive and forget are two different things ~ I want to try both and see what it brings ~ I can forgive him and I don’t know why ~ I think of his words and actions and I start to cry ~ I can’t forgive him yet, although I should ~ A good person probably already would ~ Does he know where his boundaries are? ~ Will he stop next time or go to far? ~ I trust him and love him and must wait and see ~ And hope in the future he chooses just me

** askingfor4giveness

fairy tale – part 2

A sparrow hops onto a branch to get a bird’s eye view.. Of what’s going on below, of forest colors changing hue.. And hush falls round as dark comes down and dusk soon turns to night.. Then slowly through the trees appears a dancing, flitting light.. A dainty child with gossamer wings no larger than my thumb.. She smiles so sweetly as she sings of magic in days to come.. And she is joined by many more who fly on fragile wings.. Lifting their lanterns high above and whispering fairy things.. And their wings create a rainbow that to most remains unseen..  Unless you have some magic hidden somewhere in your being.. For you can join the fairies’ dance and you could be one who sings.. So sweetly in pure innocence, if you believe in fairy things..

lucky

I’ve been so lucky.. To have you in my life.. Knowing that you love me.. And will always be.. So for the time being.. If we are apart.. Now I’ll carry our love.. Deep in my heart.. Promise me you’ll stay.. And always be my friend.. And no matter what happens.. You’ll stay until the end.. So I send you kisses.. And shivers up your spine.. So that you’ll remember.. That your heart is mine..

my best friend

She reads between the lines.. It’s like she inside my brain.. She overlooks the craziness.. And only sees the sane.. She has gotten past the barriers.. I have placed to keep people out.. She sees the pride I keep inside.. She’s a good friend.. Without a doubt.. Allah must have made her just for me.. He molded her special out of human clay.. He gave her wisdom and a sense of humor.. To show me that there’s another way.. She brings joy to everyone.. She carries with her humor and light.. And all who know her, know it’s true.. She helps to make the day seem bright.. She loves my folks.. Keeps their home.. She’s a friend to everyone.. So fittingly – she gets this poem.. As my freedom ends.. And my terror begins.. She’ll be my friend.. Until the end..